Self Portrait Reflection

I really didn't have a problem with the idea of making a self portrait. After 495 over the summer I am comfortable putting myself on screen to tell my story. I think what I was most insecure about was the editing and style of the piece. I'm always worried about the quality of the camera I use and my lighting. I feel like it doesn't look "professional," whatever that means. It feels basic in that regard. As far as the editing goes, simple and straightforward edits are what I'm used to from making family videos as a kid. I did use some transitional effects, but I never feel like it's enough. It was definitely hard to believe any positive feedback was genuine. It's only when I show it to people that really get insecure about those things. When I was making it it felt like my creative decisions were the "right" thing to do with the resources I had. I think growing up making films only for family and friends has made it hard for me to make things, or at least feel confident it showing things, for a broader audience. The fun of home movies was the cheap quality of it. It didn't look for feel "professional," and that's what made it fun and entertaining. When I think about showing such work to filmmaker peers it just feels embarrassing. Not being so self-conscious is definitely something for me to work on when sharing my work with others.